I Make Mistakes...

It is ridiculously late at night aka early in the morning and so what else is there to do while I'm waiting for the baking soda to kick in to calm my stomach? Why, read people's blogs, of course.

I love seeing what people have to say, how they say it, their experiences, their perspectives... But tonight something interesting happened during this reading frenzy. I was reading a friend's blog that frankly I forgot existed until I saw a link posted on their Facebook wall. So of course I started reading the most recent post. And then the next one, and the next until bam! There I was in all my ugly glory. I am not used to people referencing me in, well, just about anything let alone a blog. But there I was. Not my name but my actions. The words written were stinging but not far off and vividly reminded that I make mistakes. At the time, I had felt shocked and hurt and was being told by others that I was indirectly being slandered on this friend's FB wall, and in a not-well-thought-out moment I rang out in a Facebook status a not-too-nice name which is so not like me to say. A few moments later people had already left comments on the unfortunate status, and a few moments after that I readily deleted my stupid mistake, hoping against hope that since we were not friends on the beloved book of faces that this person would be none the wiser. But sadly, as I found out during this evening's perusal of said blog, I now know that in a matter of minutes gossip ensued and my blunder did in fact get back to this person. As disappointing as this is and as much as I'm curious as to the identity of the person who threw me under the bus, the mistake remains in one person alone and that would be me. So to this person - my friend (who probably doesn't even read my blog) - I am so sorry. I still make mistakes and am still learning. Thankfully, this friend and I are beyond the mistakes of the past and have started over with a clean slate. However, not knowing I had caused this offense I felt it only right to apologize. Not just for this, but for anything I did that was out of line. I will not regret my mistakes for they have played a part in who I am today. But I absolutely will learn from them and try to be better everyday.

I will also try to be a better blog reader and blog writer. Incidentally, as I continued reading further back into this friend's blog, I came across a sweet post where they actually did name me by name and lifted me up with their kind words. Even though my passion may come across as dramatic or what some may even refer to as melodramatic, I would not trade it for complacency or boringness. And as I continue to get to know this friend once again, I look forward to the many things I will learn and to not making the same mistakes again.

Now for another dose of baking soda water...